Sunday, October 23, 2011

Our trip to Ecuador

Isn't this a great family photo?

It is one of a very few we have from the last 12months where we are all just so happy. One silly comment about boobies and we were all in hysterics.

On this day we were being interviewed about our very serious story and struggle with homelessness. The story covers the statistics of families experiencing the same crisis as us.

We were left homeless through absolutely no fault of our own. We were simply evicted from our rental property 1 year after we moved in because the owner decided she wanted to live there instead.

Bear sitting in the stair well of the hotel we lived in one of our favourite photos

We always had a beautiful light shining for the end of this year. My father in-law gifted our family of 5 and Carlos' two younger brothers, tickets to visit our family back in Ecuador. We were going to spend 8 weeks overseas. Something we have wanted to but have never been able due to other commitments.

We were going to spend Christmas and New Years with the family that would embrace us, laugh and cry with us, sing and dance with us, share stories between us. Can you imagine all the love we would have had surrounding us? Love that we so longed for through the storm we managed to weather as a family.

Carlos and Bubble smiling through the hard times after her operation in July.

Since going through Bubble's operation and being homeless, the trip was the one good thing we had to look forward to. All our family back home in Ecuador were up during the night while Bubble was having her operation and they were very much a part of the love and energy that got us through some of the harder days.

Moo, Bubble and Bear a few days after Bubble's operation when her eyes finally opened.

Can you sense I am avoiding something... Once I say it it becomes real. It seems the light has well and truly faded. Believe me we tried to keep it alight right till the very last kindle but sometimes you just have to surrender to the inevitable.

We are not going to Ecuador on the 14th November 2011.

There are so many factors stopping us at this stage. Homelessness has been the biggest drain emotionally, physically, spiritually and ultimately financially.

It's only been the last couple of days that the decision was made. We have passports organised but it was the expense of our shots to go overseas that we didn't expect.

We came so close, it was in arms reach. We had so many family and friends saying 'You have to go... you can't come this far and not go!' But we can and we have.

On a brighter note, as defeated as we may feel at times, we are looking at this as a re-scheduling of our plans and have decided that we will still travel within the next 2 or so years once everything is back in it's place and we are once again in full control of our lives.

From this devastating heartbreak comes a little hope. We have another opportunity to focus on the commitments we made moving to the Central Coast. We will be moving into another home close to where we are at the moment. Moo and Bear really like their school which is a massive incentive to stay here while we can. This year they have attended 3 different schools.

We'll also be able to relaunch MooBear Designs which we have missed working on so so much. We have had new designs waiting to come to life before all this craziness occured.

Carlos will be able to get creative again with Analog Transmission as well as his own album as cdot on his label neuromantra. Actually would you believe that he finished recording his album while we were in crisis?! Funny how things work out.

Last but not least Carlos and I are dedicated to a very special cause. I mentioned back at the beginning of all of this that we would stand up and be the voice of family homelessness. In response to a very immediate need we have started working on The TreeHouse.

What is The TreeHouse? A not-for-profit organisation to help ease the stress and trauma for families experiencing or facing homelessness, to stop families from losing their sense of identity and to assist with the healing process.

Enjoying Abuelo's back yard and some freedom recently

We're determined to use our experience to help others and make a difference.
To everyone who has supported us through our story we thank you from the bottom of our hearts. I have no words left and I want to finish this blog post which has taken days for me to work up the courage to write. It was the easiest way for me to tell everyone at the same time rather than reliving those feelings over and over again.

Much love and light
Steph, Carlos, Moo, Bear and Bubble.


  1. Oh Steph. What heartbreak - you guys have had such an awful time of it this year. Annoyingly, if you were down here we could help you with the shots, as Justin works at a travel clinic a few times a month and we could've at least got things cost price. How much are you talking? Should we try to pass the hat around? Have you totally given up the idea?! Talk to me!!

  2. hey Steph, I am totally agreeing with Gina, I would love to chip in to pay for the shots - seems like such a small reason to not go on the trip of a lifetime!! It you consider doing a hat pass around, let me know!

    This post made me so frustrated - after all you have been through, too much for one family, you deserve this holiday, you really do!

  3. This is sad Steph, so sad. I hope you get to go to Ecuador another year, you're so close to going. Your family is so lovely, seriously, you need a break xox

  4. Steph,
    I am gob-smacked!
    Can't imagine the pain and disappointment you are all feeling right now.
    So sorry for you.
    I think passing the hat around is a great idea. Please let us know how we can help...if at all.
    Much love Ally <'v'>

  5. Count me in if you pass the hat around! Sending you and your family GIANT hugs Steph! xx

  6. I want to give you all cuddles and kisses!! Thank you so much for your kind and wonderful offer to help us get there. But alas the tickets have been cancelled. We really aren't in a position to emotionally invest in this dream any longer. When we do travel in the next few years we'll be prepared and know exactly what we are in for. Gina my girl thank you for your absolute love and enthusiasm.

    Something bigger and better is on its way to our life!! It better be or I am going to have to talk to someone high up in the universe!!

    Mwah mwah mwah

  7. i'm ready to chip in too!

    but i can totally understand wanting to get stable at home first. i know you will get there one day and we will all be waiting for the postcards :)

    your family is so strong, i don't know if i could make it through what you have been through...

  8. I know how much you were all looking forward to this totally SUCKS!! But this year is not a TOTAL waste...think of all of the wonderous, fantabulous things that HAVE happened!! Bubble, Moo, and Bear are so STRONG and LOVING and are now and will always be closer to each other than any family with everyday "privileges" because they truly understand what being a FAMILY means...good AND bad!! The miracle that is Bubble and her successful procedure!! You and Carlos proving OVER AND OVER how committed you are to each other and your family and to reach out to others in need...absolute ANGELS! The Higher Power smiles on you always even though it feels like you are being struck down at every triumph...focus on the triumphs!!! ALL OF MY LOVE to you!! Please let me know if there is anything I can do...ever!!